Long Time, No Posts

I know it's been a while. I fell off the bandwagon. or slipped. or huddled in the fetal position with a lot of blankets in the corner so that the other members of the band wouldn't see me. Something like that.

The truth is that in late November/early December the depression took a turn for the worse and all I could think of to write about was how painfully sad I was. No matter what I started to say, it somehow managed to come back to sadness. I didn't want to write or even admit how sad I was, so I just stopped. I stopped in a lot of other ways. I stopped volunteering. I stopped looking at jobs. I stopped eating breakfast or lunch. I stopped sleeping. I stopped getting out of my pajamas. I stopped showering. I excelled at watching television on hulu, crying, and worrying people sick.

Now, I'm doing better. Much better. Going home and getting a change of scenery really helped. I feel reinvigorated about applying to jobs. I just applied to two office monkey jobs today. I have also finished my application for the Jesuit Volunteer Corps, which I'm really excited about (even though getting the medical form filled out was a headache). I've been reading John Dear's A Persistent Peace. He's a really interesting Jesuit who focuses on the nonviolence of Jesus and then translates that into activism. Some of what he does is really intense, but his rationale is spot-on. He certainly has more courage than I do, and I really admire him. I'd really recommend finding his book in your local public library or bookstore. It's definitely worth a read.

I've been following the federal court trial of Prop 8 (the voter amendment in California that knocked down same-sex marriage) through Prop 8 Trial Tracker. It's totally fascinating to see how the case is being built. They have called a lot of professors as expert witnesses, and reading along has been like a series of mini-lessons on the history of marriage, the history of queers, and sociology. I really recommend checking it out if you have a bunch of time (it's basically a transcript with commentary interspersed and a few blog posts). It's kinda like watching a football game on tv if that football game were actually a landmark legal case. Another great place for coverage is KQED. They have a blog going, and it might be easier to jump in late in the game on their site.

I'm also eating, showering, and dressing regularly (so you can stop worrying).

Hope all is well with you and yours!


p.s. If you are in the position to give financially, I would appreciate it if you could give money to the First Presbyterian Church of Berkeley. Click here to do so. They are currently providing me with donation-based counseling, and I don't have that much to donate.

p.p.s. We're also trying to send one of the kids Will lives with to this awesome summer camp for transyouth. They also need donations.